No, you don’t understand. I’m aiming for Mediocre.

It’s three a.m. and I’m nauseous from a happy hour where I probably consumed too many snacks (because despite the wine I really didn’t drink that much).

Why are the snacks always my downfall?

Anywho, I was running on the treadmill today and disliking it rather intensely (but #trying) and I really got annoyed with myself and this societal believe that you always have to “fight,” “don’t quit,” “improve,” “be in stupid amounts of pain all the time so that you can achieve greatness or a six pack (of abs).”

And, I get it. Sometimes we need motivation, inspiration, etc. But, why does it always need to get better? I’m not demeaning anyone struggling for a better life here or anyone fighting real or imagined demons, but isn’t worth asking when is it all enough?

I have been saying recently that I’m just trying to be a better person. More giving. Less judgemental. More…something. And another part of me is like…”I know this is crazy, but what if you are already a better person.”

I think in life – humans like journeys and the stories that go with them. And, your struggle is important, but it doesn’t have to be constant. Someone once told me, “Life isn’t a marathon or a sprint. You don’t get a medal at the end. You just die.” I’ll concede that maybe this statement isn’t comforting, but can it be the litmus test for all that shit we make ourselves do that we don’t really want to do?

Social media gives us this idea that life is supposed to be exciting, challenginf, new, scary all the time. Then combine that with an intensive self-improvement market and now we’ve got all these people feeling inadequate because their life is not SUPER INTENSE AND EXCITING AND THEY IMPROVED THEIR HEALTH BY DRINKING TEA AND GOING PALEO AND LOOK AT THIS CANYON. (No judgements). Your life can be these things, if that’s what you want. But, if its not?

It’s ok. You don’t need to live a life other than your own.

Sometimes I go do cool stuff (swim with seals) and sometimes I hide in my house for two days and eat like a trash panda. Sometimes I do fun stuff with humans and sometimes my only friends are stray dogs. Sometimes I coordinate fancy events and sometimes I obsessively archive files until my eyeballs hurt.

Your life is exactly that: yours. No need to live it for anyone else. #inspirationalquoteimadeup


2 thoughts on “No, you don’t understand. I’m aiming for Mediocre.

  1. You’re right–social media has definitely contributed to a lot of people feeling like their lives are inadequate. But most people who are posting how amazing their lives are do it because they’re trying to convince themselves more than anyone else.

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  2. I’ll just leave this here for you: Your life is exactly that: yours. No need to live it for anyone else. 😉

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