Maybe more. It depends on what time of day it is. January has her claws latched into me and I just calculated how to spend less on my caffeine addiction without having to change my consumption. Then I unsubscribed from like forty emails which was oddly gratifying.
Whereas a week ago I was all idea mania, the logical one is trying to pick up the pieces and make adult decisions so we aren’t broke. Idea mania wants to give all her money away. The logical one is trying to figure out stock trading. And I am just trying to exist in the neutral zone. Or somewhere in the middle. Or somewhere not inside my brain.
See, I never really know who is right between the various versions of myself. Maybe they are all right in some way.
I’m trying to let them both have turns without letting either do anything too crazy. I guess this is what parenthood is like. Or marriage.
But, the hot fiance evens me out when I really need it. He may just have to hide the internet from me on occasion.
Look at him. So pretty.