I’m currently between two extremes:
- Massive Creative Mania
- Kinda want to wrap myself in depression’s blanket
I’m sure it would help if I slept like a normal person. Don’t get me wrong, my sleep issues don’t have me up at all hours like they did in 2012-2013. Mostly, I have trouble shutting down my brain to get to sleep, staying asleep, and then I have insane dreams that either leave me vastly confused about WTF is going on in my brain or upset about the emotional conflict that my brain made up.
Sidenote: I once thought there was a medication that stopped dreams. There is not.
I could deal with the sleep thing if I had benadryl – but I’m all out until my amazon order (Go to the store, you say. They don’t have it here) comes in. Which is fine, I can hack it until then. Probably.
I feel like I am stuck between two extremes: wanting to do everything and wanting to do nothing. The internal arguments between the Lindsay’s are particularly interesting and go something like this:
Artistic L: I NEED A GRAPHIC DESIGN APP.
Depressed L: I’m tired
Artistic L: WE SHOULD WRITE THIS STORY
Depressed L: I want to sleep
Artistic L: AND HERE IS ANOTHER IDEA FOR OUR WRITING
Depressed L: are you always this loud?
Anxiety: I have to pee
How do you manage the extremes? And well the anxiety doesn’t know what to do, so we are currently in the midst of a mental cold war.
And because the creative one is on hyperdrive – I created the below as a compromise.